Honestly this is the worst thing ever...

Whats annoying is that it was going so well

i was so close

8 stone.

id reached 8 stone..

and then im forced to have yet another motherfucking family meal that i cant get out of

and this morning im 8 stone fucking 2lb..

thats set me back 2 whole days now.

today i would have been in GW territory... i was 8 FUCKING STONE

ANY MORE DROPS AND ID SEE SEVENS!! LIKE IVE BEEN WANTING FOR WEEKS!

But oooooh nooooo

back tracked once again!!

All ive done all day is look at food recipes, from slimming world meals to mug cakes to full on slow cooker goodness...

and i still cant eat any of it because im still a fat heffa because until i get into the safe 7s i cant eat!!!

clearly!! otherwise i gain!!! over-fucking-night!!!

7stone and 6lbs is preferred. ill settle for 7stone 10lb by my birthday where i will, against all wills, enjoy myself and have a drink and cake and cheese and whatever the fuck else i want...

cuz then i can get back on it, and any damage i do i can repair cuz ill still theoretically be in the 7s. Which is safe... and so much closer to my UGW of 100lbs.

Once i reach the 7s, ill eat again, like not normally , i cant do that, but normal for me meaning under 500 cals a day...

then slowly but surely i can drop to the low 7s whilst still eating something at least...

right now i cant even eat a fucking 50 cal pink & white wafer without gaining fat...

Stupid body... restrict all week, eat once and BAM..back to shitsville...

tried to talk to BEAT today on chat... but chat then froze i pressed a button i shouldnt have and didnt get any help or answers i needed...totally not their fault tho..but i cant bring myself to talk to them again..

i dont need help anyway, im not small enough for that they'd just laugh at me...

lets see what tomorrow brings shall we!