I am disgusting...

So i did it

i got the job

im leaving where i am and where i go no one will be watching my eating..

The worst part is i fucking gained a whole pound...

My dad practically made me eat a 4 egg omelette with mushrooms and a bit of cheese...

it was swimming in butter. Made me feel disgusting..

But FAT ME DECIDED THAT WASNT ENOUGH!!

I then had 2 jaffa cakes

1 pink & white wafer

1/2 can peaches

1/2 can pineapples

4 Moam Sweets

All after this omelette... 

I am disgusting

I took 4 lax but they did nothing. Not even a cramp!!!

Fucking let downs i must be used to them now

i even tried purging..for like 20 mins straight there i was shoving my fingers down my throat and all i puked was some bile & what looked like a red pepper and fuck knows where that came from!!

Today i have fasted all day but tonight is chinese night and i have no way of getting out of it...

Ive ordered chop suey... its veggies. I can drain the sauce.. i can leave bits... Ill work out when i get home

I went from 8st 3.6lbs to 8st 4.4lbs overnight...

I swear to god if i get on them scales tomorrow and im more ill just die...

I neeeeeeed to lose that last 5lb. i need to see 7stone. I just need to be under 8 and ill be happy. Only then ill feel safe to eat again... 

How the fuck can i gain weight eating waaaay below the national average..??? How?

I HATE IT!!