Daily Motivation

When the fat girl becomes thin, shes a success story...

Never mind the fact she fucking starved to get herself to this point...

ignore that she cried if she saw the scales fluctuate daily

Forget she couldnt look at herself in any reflection, the sight of herself would ruin her whole day

fuck that shes now limiting herself to 500 cals a day, excersizes more than ever and feels utterly worthless when she eats...

Because eating is cheating...

Eating is failing

Eating will destroy all her hard work

You just keep telling yourself how great it is...

Now its limiting yourself, restricting, taking lax on a bad day, not letting anything pass your lips on a good day...
Feeling like a failure when you cant purge
Seeking validation where there's none to gain
Fearing the number on the scales is a lie
Even worse, fearing its the truth and you still have so far to go
Mentally counting the calories of everything you see
Posting a photograph on social media of yourself , in your gym kit, not because you want to show off, but so you can look back and be embarrassed at how fat you still are, and now everyone knows it. you cant hide it. You need to DIEt..

My head is filled with the calories of everything, i wake up and think about my weight, im at work and i think about my weight, i get home and i lie in bed and all i think about...is my weight...

I know it will be ok once im at my UGW...it has to be...

You all say you'll do it but you dont...

I am finally becoming the person i want to be

You cant compete with that...

I cant even begin to tell you how fucking good that feels. To be on my way to perfection.

Last year i was no one. 
I was a disgusting fat mess.
I was lonely
Single.
Isolated.
FAT.

Now...im 2 and a 1/2 stone lighter and still losing...

I have friends who do active things like aerobics & running, and although we all encourage each other and give praise when we do well, we all secretly hope each other fail.

Im in a relationship with a guy who loves me for me...hes over protective and i fucking love that he says im HIS. Forever.

Im halfway there...
My starting weight was 188 pounds.
CW is 148lbs 
UGW is 100lbs

i can do this
i will do this
abs not flab,
leave no footprints
float like a feather, graceful, beautiful...
size small will be big
until i can count my ribs