Its not that i want to self destruct, but after the year ive had , i just want some peace.
Im 1 week into the new programme i made up for myself. basically as much of a calorie defict as i can, workouts daily even if its jsut yoga, as long as i do something its all ok..
i just dont feel any smaller. Mom commented i look gaunt the other day... i swear i almost said thank you...ahah.. dad said i was pale and the bf said i look like id lot weight...but i think he was just saying that to be honest...
what i want more than anytthing is to be small right now. i want to be on my own, in a comfy bed. quite. nothing more that the sounds of the outside and i want to be small..
im gettiing there...the conditioning is in place soon itll become second nature again like it was before....
everyhing has a number and i know all the numbers...but my on currently....
gonna wait another few days and then weigh in...
i got this
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