And do you know what the worst part is?...

...im no where near done yet..

i still have so far to go..

...but im closer than i was yesterday and thats what counts most.


or so i tell myself..

wanna know what pisses me off? 

they say you need to lose weight..
                so you lose weight..
they say you've done so well!
               so you lose more weight...
then they say you look good now, you've done good.
               so you lose more weight...
then they tell you that your a fucking rake whose lost too much weight!

                You know what? FUCK YOU. YOU encouraged this, YOU told me to start. YOU said i was getting too big. YOU laughed when i tried to excersize. YOU said only skinny girls can wear that. YOU made pig noises whenever i ate. YOU always asked if i was eating, really again?? YOU DID THIS. YOU . 

So dont fucking come at me and make me feel bad when i lose another 3lb in one week. Because you know what...? When i see those numbers get lower and lower, i see you, and your words mean less and less... and it feels EUPHORIC. 

SW- 189lb         CW- 142lb           UGW- 100lb      TIME TAKEN: 7 months so far
13.7 stone         10.2 stone           7.2 stone